Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Checking In

I'm feeling very depressed tonight at work... the wife has been very emotional and needy, but I haven't been able to connect with her very well. We haven't seen much of each other over the last couple of weeks.

I'm lonely and need to feel wanted and desired right now.
I'm an attractive, athletic, intelligent guy. Why don't I feel better about myself? Where does this void in need of self validation come from? It never seems to be filled... each time I find peace and serenity it seems to last such a short time before I'm yearning for something again. Sometimes my relationship with my God and Father satiates this feeling... sometimes my relationship with my wife or close friends. Sometimes it feels unquenchable, like now.

2 comments:

eva said...

maybe your wife is just too busy, make a move like plan for a romantic dinner for both of you. sometimes life has full of challenges so you must know how to dance with it.just speak up!

unknownwoman said...

Hi,

I need some advice if possible. My fiance admitted a long while ago to being a sex and porn addict. Everything seemed fine for about a year ( I caught him watching porn occasionally but he claims that it's ok he can control it now and he doesn't have preoccupying thoughts anymore - we have it outly open that if he feels weak he'll tell me so that I can support him with fighting it). Recently I noticed he is more distant, seems emotionally detached from me and quite disinterested in his daughter ( who's only a few months old). I know he signed up to some porn site that he now watches regularly. I feel like something is up. I try to connect with him but unsuccessfully. He says everything is ok. He doesn't know I know he's watching porn regularly from about a week. I don't know whether to confront him or not. I'm worrying. Don't know what to do. Can a porn addict/sex addict watch porn and just be ok?? He doesn't go out, comes home after work. I don't fully understand what's going on. Am I just paranoid? He's got a new job where he works between two offices and
recently He told me he had a training scheduled outside those two locations - for some reason a huge alarm bell started ringing in my head. Maybe it was the way he said it, maybe the way he was looking at me when he said it or the fact he used to cheat on his other girlfriends when he travelled. Than his training got canceled - so I was told. Not sure if it was true but hearing that his "training" was canceled made me feel relieved. Still I feel something is up. Please advise!